weeding though the shit.

yeah so people suck.
end of story.

...actually, my friends do not suck. especially the ones that check my email for me at 9:30 am.
otherwise, most people are generally disappointing me right now.
lots of them are cruel, malicious, emotionally abusive, and/or goddamn stupid.
luckily i am trying to surround myself with people who are none of the above.
so far...meh.
finding friends here is coming easier now that i don't have a significant other.
either way, i kind of want to go home.

smoking too much hookah.

ps. elliott smith covers of beatles songs are fucking amazing.
things got kind of rough there for a while but are starting to smooth back out.
thanks to everyone who let me cry on their proverbial shoulder.
just applied for a craigslist one-time editing gig. hoping and praying it works out so i can get some experience/cash. cross your fingers for me.
i am making some good decisions, i think. trying really hard to make my life all i want it to be. so far, doing okay. hungry but (fairly) happy.
much love to the benevolent squid posse.

everything begins to fall into place.

i came to a very important decision today. i think it will help me mature emotionally in a lot of ways. unfortunately for you all, i refuse to divulge the nature and content of this decision. it is a very private one. maybe if you are lucky i will tell you over the phone. but not now, that's for sure.

in other news. having fun in portland! got another job at a store in the mall, a store that will heretofore remain nameless in this blog. anyhoo. i start tomorrow and then work for a fucking week straight at both my jobs without a day off or a second to breathe. two doubles at the sushi place and then lots of training at the new retail job. luckily this means that i will have money for rent and things like that soon, which is a relief.

also, i am in love like never before. it is amazing. i am very lucky.
miss and love you all.

urban outfitters stole my wallet.

so. a group interview at anthropologie on wednesday morning and two potential interviews for serving jobs on thursday.
yay!
i would give an ovary to work at anthropologie. unfortunately there is no H&M in this town, which saddens me, but is also a good thing because i would spend all of my money there in a heartbeat.
also applied at a fashionable/expensive boutique and at a high-end sex shop.
exciting! canvassing really is quite difficult, you know.
must get out of the house more and go exploring. unfortunately i am dirt, dirt poor. as in, no money for gas, food, or coffee. i budgeted well in my head but said budgeting did not translate to reality well.
however, onward and upward! as usual. miss you all very, very much.

still kisses with saliva. no longer empty and frantic.

my first rain in portland occurred today.
i am still having a total blast.
still exploring this awesome city.
still canvassing for the DNC for as long as possible. yay for 2 weeks of guaranteed employment.
still head over heels in love. even more so now than i ever was before. so very happy.
still missing all my az friends. the benevolent squid posse can never be replaced. but slowly making new friends here.
also. this city has the greatest vintage shopping ever. oh let me tell you. just fyi.
much, much love.

i never liked robert frost anyways.

i woke up this morning not being able to hear out of my right ear again.
curses.
portland is lovely, dark, and deep.
(and miles to go before i sleep?)
not to mention green. oh is it nice here.
now i just need to find employment.
and prevent my vehicle from being broken into again.
miss you all terribly. much love.

no mouth no neck no rest.

tomorrow is the big day.
eep! excited!
if you haven't seen me yet, you probably won't see me before i leave. i have so much to do in so little time today.
and i am happy.
i love you all. especially you.