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so if i get a big enough paycheck on friday, coachella is so for real happening. i am excited! it may just be me and my friend saki going, but also maybe my roommate helena. 7 days off of work, though. but it is so totally worth it. even if i was going to the middle of the desert to see just kat and the yeah yeah yeahs weren't even involved, it would be worth it. for sure. last night i had a horrible, painful pang of homesickness. it started in my chest and worked its way down my abdomen, to finally come to rest in the pit of my stomach. i miss my friends and family so very, very much- friday will be 6 months since i have been in arizona. however, portland is going better and better...there is a boyfriend now, and much love. work is going better, and i am going to apply to psu for grad school, starting hopefully in the winter term of this year (late december? early january?). either way, things are looking up. i have never felt this kind of unconditional love and affection before in my life; he knows me so well and loves all my faults and shortcomings despite. i am so incredibly happy, and i have free healthcare! and the government buys me cigarettes with my food stamps. awesome. look out coachella, we are coming!